Had a great talk with my Dad tonight and he said he can recall all the highlight memories between us since there aren’t very many

Which is true. We just haven’t gotten along until now. It tears me up that he’s ill. I am feeling all the feels

That sounds very tough but I'm glad you had a good talk and I hope you have many more.

That makes me sad. My dad and I are on awful terms (his own doing).
OP, I'm glad you and your dad get to reconnect, I'm sorry it's under bad circumstances though.

queen738: I literally spontaneously cry all the time. lulz. while doing dishes, driving (NOT ideal), not at work thankfully, in the shower...yes very hard. health is such an under valued thing until someone's is missing

sheep618: omg I totally understand what you're going through and that's sooo hard too. hugs. and yeah....it fucking breaks my heart that these are the terms. I keep telling my mind not to go to that place...that "if only" place, where if only we'd gotten along earlier in life, or sooner. nothing good from that, but sometimes it's hard to resist the thought

pirate50: thank you for the hugs! without trying to sound selfish, i need all the hugs rn

Have some more then!