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dp but [rl, emetophobia ment medica]
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no blood it's not that kind of puking this time thank god
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but i took a sip of water while eating
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and because of my stomach, with how my stomach is smaller after the tumor removal and all
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it made me vomit
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like i lit was eating 1/4 cup of a salad and took a sip of water and everything went everywhere
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i hate this surgery
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i hate i had the tumor t all and i hate the surgery needed to remove it took so much of my stomach with it
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and i hate that i can't eat most of what i used to or want to eat
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and i hate i cant drink most of what i used to
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and i hate i never feel hungry i just eat to eat cause otherwise i'll literally die
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andi can barely eat anything
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and i've lost like 60 pounds since november, that's two fucking months
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that's disgustingly unhealthy and i hate it
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and i'm taking my vitamins and protein to try and keep from gettingeven more unhealthy
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or malnourished
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and i'm freaked out about it and i hate it ad i want to just have a normal fucking life but i've never had a normal life so what'd change about that now
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i'm terrified of getting malnourished and getting sicker and i'm taking everything i'm told as i'm told to a t because i'm freaked
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nd 'm just
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so tired of this
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so tired
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thank you bun <3 i really appreciate this!
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unrelated to the puking thing but i didn't want to make another rl post so
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but im still full out manic and while emotionally it's going p okay and i'm getting tons done my body is aching
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my knee is killing me, i think it needs to be drained again and it's so gross and uncomfortable but i'm trying my brace but it's so tight rn from it
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my knee is killing me, i think it needs to be drained again and it's so gross and uncomfortable but i'm trying my brace but it's so tight rn from it
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and my hips are making me crazy and my body is like 'do everything' but also 'do nothing' and i'm just 8I pls lort