Okay I will say this about the continuing terrible anxiety about bedbugs: I have never been this on top of my cleaning and laundry.

Like, I can't handle even one day's dirty laundry hanging around right now, it makes me VERY UNCOMFORTABLE and also DEAD CERTAIN that something horrifying is living in it

maybe if I keep indulging this, I'll form a relief/pleasure association with starting a load of laundry that can make this habit permanent

or, i'll make myself crazy

forever

hmm it takes about a month to form a habit, so i can see it happening