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[ncod] it's your local useless bisexual peace here!!! i've only put a label on it in the past... six years now i guess? sixish? but there's a hilarious reason for that
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see, growing up i simply assumed that everyone liked girls and thought they were pretty and wanted to hold their hands and kiss them
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because girls were pretty and nice and wonderful
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and obv society impressed upon me the "boys + girls" narrative so i was like "well of course girls love girls that's just natural" and nothing told me otherwise
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i assumed everyone was the same as me, essentially
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i learned this was not the case when speaking poetically about the human body and my guy friends being weirded out by my candid words about loving all people no matter their presentation
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THAT SAID: I HAVE HAD ONLY BOYFRIENDS IN THE PAST so i often assumed i was straight and, again, it was just natural to love girls too
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but in the past sixish years i've realized and accepted that no i'm just bisexual. i don't lean either way, but i... am admittedly sort of afraid of seeking relationships with other women because i can't tell who's a gay
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and long distance relationships haven't worked out for me very well, i'm a very physical person
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but i am assuredly interested in them (i usually fall really fast for girls and grow to have crushes on guys)
☆ katveh.
you're adorable omg
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IT DOESN'T HELP THAT I HAD A FRIEND IN KINDERGARTEN WHO'D ALWAYS KISS SIS AND I'S CHEEK WHEN WE PARTED WAYS
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I AM ALMOST POSITIVE IT'S HER FAULT I HAD AN APPARENT BISEXUAL AWAKENING AT LIKE, SIX
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EXCEPT IT WASN'T MUCH OF AN AWAKENING IF I DIDN'T REALIZE IT I GUESS
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i haven't fooled around with anyone or even had my first kiss yet because i'm a shy flower with a low sex drive and i feel pathetic some days because i'm 24 and i haven't even kissed anyone???
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it's embarrassing
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but it's fine, it'll happen when it happens
☆ katveh.
oh miss peace oh
CAM
as someone who had their first kiss at twelve I promise it's not some sort of magical experience
CAM
it's mostly just awkward
CAM
you're not missing much
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i figure it's just kind of awkward but man does it feel weird
CAM
it only feels weird if there's a tongue in your mouth
CAM
and that's because there's a tongue in your mouth.
☆ katveh.
^ yes that hahah
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I SEE........... understood