[mental health] [Other stuff i don't know quite how to categorize]
Okay, so...

I suppose I need to get my mental bullshit out of the way here somehow. Truthfully speaking, I feel almost like I have too much on my plate, and legit can't focus

Long story short is that...I'm pretty sure something has to give. I'm not sure where or what, but the list of major things can be summed up as follows:

* FFXIV: ...yeah. I admit, sadly, that I'm feeling burnt out on it. I also know that previous attempts to take a break really haven't actually helped the burnt-out feeling. I'm not sure what to do here, but I'm suspecting the cause is partially external.

* Tabletop GMing: let's be honest. I've done too many false starts to actually get people on-board anymore. Legit, running a game's no small task.

I do basically want to run some sort of game in Battle Century G, but legit have trouble coming up with a setting and baseline plot without accidentally going too far in and overplanning in such a way that it'd require massive railroading on the players' parts.

Add that to the frequent frustration I derive from trying to enforce schedules, and...yeah. I'm not sure what to do here.

RPG Maker: Surprise, I'm /still/ fiddling around with it. Except I can't come up with a plot I don't hate. The constant scramblebrained feeling I have when trying to come up with anything kind of screws with me as well, truthfully speaking.

Driving, Work: this shit's non-negotiable.

I suppose the real problem is that half the time, I spend basically either idly farting about, or in the middle of bullshit moodswings. And I'm not sure if what I'm doing is too much or there's affective disorders and/or other shit interfering

i can't even bring myself to cook for myself a lot of the time

or...do much, really

wonder if it's Too Much Crap or just having no real drive now

fuck

almost thinking i need to drop something, except part of me's possibly just thinking that's another means of withdrawal.

not sure what to do

As a person I don't really relax. It's not like it's a conscious decision not to relax so much as that I just...don't