[some description of suicidal ideation]Home and fed and questions answered and I did promise a truth or dare response but first PLANS.
Cherry
[some description of suicidal ideation]Home and fed and questions answered and I did promise a truth or dare response but first PLANS.
[some description of suicidal ideation]Home and fed and questions answered and I did promise a truth or dare response but first PLANS.
Cherry
now these are all subject to change but
Cherry
the most likely outcome of the meetup on 269 is that Enoch will withdraw. He can't handle causing people so much distress (read: Rhys and probably Billy, but he suspects he may cause distress through their connections) just by being near them.
Cherry
There's already a lot of talk in his narration describing his actions as "seeking permission to just exist" or the like
Cherry
and that isn't necessarily he feels he shouldn't exist?
Cherry
it's more like he doesn't want to inflict any more pain on people and he's going to go somewhere people aren't likely to wind up accidentally, so if they're going to meet him, it will be on their terms
Cherry
(these thoughts are obviously a lot less ordered in his mind than they are here, I'm just describing his motivations so that, oocly, we're clear this isn't leading to a suicide plot, because it won't without some sort of extra push)
Cherry
(and it'd have to be one hell of a push because when Enoch does get intrusive thoughts of that nature they don't manifest like that, it's always attached to the chance of fatal failure rather than direct action)
Cherry
(e.g., "I suppose I'll find out if this is safe to eat one way or another")
Cherry
anyway I'm getting off track here
Cherry
so about a couple days in he'll probably hit up the network with some rambling because guess fucking what, he can't actually handle isolation.
Cherry
that's when he'll say where he is and if anyone wants to meet him they can come
Cherry
If talk is productive he'll probably sponsor a supply cache - the tunnels are cleaned of abandoned items, but items in a character's possession are never taken.
Cherry
again, everything's subject to change. For all I know the coterie meetup will set him down a different path entirely
Cherry
but this is where most of my considerations led
Cherry
sad hermiting, from a person who is not emotionally equipped to actually be a hermit.
Cherry
should be fun!
Cherry
he will probably recover on his own in time, either by someone else giving him a kick or by outside events, or just getting autophobic enough he ditches his little tunnels camp and seeks company despite it all.
Cherry
("autophobic" is kind of a strange name for the fear of isolation. It sounds like fear of oneself but it's not.)
💠ᴛʜᴇ ʙʟᴜᴇ.
If you do make that post, Wilson will bug him because he's nosy.
Cherry
Sounds good to me! If it's going up, it'll be going up the moment I know how 269 plays out for him!
Cherry
(he could probably use the reminder to not sleep all day tbh)
Cherry
(it's pitch black in the tunnels all the time and there's no lockdown and he's depressed, his body has no clue wtf)
Cherry
...okay since the dead end markers aren't staying I think he's going to hole up in the corner of the loop in AA5
Cherry
under the assumption that people will attempt to navigate the maze by keeping a hand on a wall, and they're doing this coming from hub 3.
Cherry
meaning they're likely to start navigating via the south wall
Cherry
and never hit the branch that leads to the loop
Cherry
he doesn't know enough about the surrounding tunnels to make judgments based on people coming the other direction or where navigation from any other hubs will lead
Cherry
(he has also failed to account for people not knowing that navigation trick, obviously)
Cherry
hub 3, I meant.
Cherry
thank god for plurk coins
Cherry
I mean. still don't know for sure but it is still most likely so good to have plans. Making them doesn't mean at all this is definitely what I'm doing!