(rant about America) so I went to CVS (a drug store for those not regional) to get melatonin (a vitamin that helps you sleep) well for a vitamin and a water it was $17 for reference of those not in America

a year ago i bought melatonin for $7 it cost me $11 today

i bought 2 drinks and a snack

the drinks together were the size of a soda but for a dollar more! Hwy were they a dollar more? because they were flavored water

im just so fucking frustrated everytime i have to make healthy choices or buy something for my health because I'm a broke university student and sometimes its hard to make the judgement to save money or actually make healthy choices!

I take roughly 15 pills a day on average for 7 differant medical conditions to keep me relitively stable and between prescriptions and over the counter crap my medical expenses since freshman year (3 years ago) have gone from about $200 a month to roughly $400 a month

THAT'S INSANE!

and thats not including hospital visits or doctors visits because then its about $600

i just...

my health should not be in jeopardy and i shouldnt have to worry about it because I can't afford it... as a middle class collge student

i should be worrying about my career... not weather im going to be in pain this week because i cant afford my medication

Furthermore, some doctors blame a lot of my health issues on me being overweight... in reality im only about 20lbs overwieght for my size (sorry idk the international conversion) also... im a DDD in bras where a good protion of my wieght is held

also my wieght comes from another medical issue that there's no cure for because it only occurs in biological females therefore its considered a "women's problem"

so no one feels like funding the research to treat it

furthermore i will smack the next person that lectures me on my weight when a flavored water costs twice the amount of water and I can buy 2 times the amount of food at McDolands for the same price as half that food at a grocery store

unless you're willing to buy my groceries dont tell me anything about my wieght

i should also mention the "doctors" lecturing me on my weight are usually docctors that i have to see because mine isnt in or they use it to explain away unrelated nonsense like "you have depression because your overweight eat more salad and go home" or "you have migraines because your overweight"

i should also mention I dance 3 times a week for 2 hours each session, do yoga twice a week at least for an hour and a half, and do dance stretches nearly every night before bed

i prefer veggies over chocolate and usually eat salad and sandwhiches in the school cafe

and i walk everywhere because i dont drive

im more active than a lot of my "skinny" friends

but i told a doctor this once and they told me i was lying

like wtf

i hate our healthcare system