and i haven't texted him for hours na...so far so good...I don't know I may regret it someday pero right now it's nothing but stress and I've tried fixing it pero it's like quicksand

I try to patch things up pero somehow we argue again....maybe yana of course dire na gud kay tapos naman akon problema

so kung good mood ako or waray na masyadong problema makikibalik ako knowing na I couldn't count on him when I really needed him?...no thanks

if anu man atleast I don't want to talk to him for a long while...parang punishment na din for betraying me pero I'm nearly done with this relationship na

I don't know....if bumalik man hiya sure mabalik utro hiya Manila...and werk werk werk na...aand as usual we can't talk like normal couples...like just talk about our day instead of just frustrations..

we cant talk about random stuff anymore...the things we want to see or have or do...it's just work and acads na and worrying how we're going to make this work na minsan

pag uli almost turog dayun...pag weekends waray gihap...so okay waray gihap ako time para hini kung dire ka man la maaram mag spare hin like hour or two to really catch on things instead of arguing stuff and stressing me about the things you find hard at work

kay of course dire gad ak makakarelate plus atleast na work ka na ako ngani im still stuck in this phase

and the longer i stay the lesser chance i can get a job

sometimes I feel selfish din pero I can tell din na waray ka concern...like sometimes you don't even ask about my day na...and it's hard kay you're either walking on the streets when you call tapos pag uli you need to do stuff pa utro

like come on pag uli mo pahuway na gad...9 or 10pm ka nauli tapos work la gihap...the next day kelangan mo na lwat magmata 7 or 8 am

pero you're like that..so workaholic

know you're intentions are good pero come on...pati weekends?...i dont even text you nalang to avoid disturbing you I just wait for you to call or text nalang

hays pero you'll say makuri tlg didi ming...i know pero stressing over it that much and not giving you're brain a break will just reduce you're productivity and critical thinking

and of course you dont listen to me so oh well

what's worse? when you talk about what you did...I listen pero when it's my turn you suddenly need to do something aaand gab.i na kita utro magstostorya like ok ayaw nala kita hini

tapos dire la pa gud ito maiha unless it's a talk about an issue we're having or when I say I've had enough...then you'll give hours to our conversation..

like wth???

well atleast you care pa in that way pero if we had decent conversation before then that wouldn't be necessary...and anyway it was excruciating

in the long run

and I'm human...and if you're going to be like this then in the future we'll be more busier and probably farther away and we won't probably survive so ok bye