I kind of want to do a project of some type? about my perception of myself and relationships to others. With social media posts and/or IRL utterances lined up against each other. like one side "nobody likes me everybody hates me" and the other side "I can't walk through Peck Hall without hugging someone"

I've been poking at kind of "portrait of mental illness" stuff and thinking about social media a lot lately

but also two different people lectured me yesterday about discounting them when I say no one cares about me xp

and it's a weird thing, because I can see it on my timeline both here and Facebook?

<3 you're fiercely loved

thanks, Puli dear

I don't care if I have to remind you every day

it's just this really strange realization to come to, though? not just that mental illness plays some part in the way I think about what others think of me, but...

how incredibly TRANSPARENT it is if I look at my own words?

like I have problems both resting and getting things done because I'm bad at saying no to people.

BUT OBVIOUSLY THAT IMPLIES PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS TALKING TO ME AND ASKING ME TO DO THINGS?

ilu Puli

That would actually be a really interesting thing to put together because I think it applies to many people I know, probably myself included

Mm!

I think it'd be neat.

And it'd be a nice way for me to work with the issue positively rather than just kicking myself for it, which is kind of... counterproductive.

yeah, I agree, it sounds like an interesting project

"I'M A TERRIBLE PERSON EVERYONE MUST HATE ME"

"I'M A TERRIBLE PERSON FOR SAYING THAT!!!"

TURN YOUR MENTAL BULLSHIT INTO ART

It's probably a summer project idea by now since it's the end of my semester and I'll be busy with papers and tests, but it's something I think would be productive and neat.

It's just so easy not to realize when you're caught up in your own moods?

definitely

But damn sometimes I look back at things I said and I'm like "wait, this doesn't... add up?"