[rl] [mental health] Ugh I had such a good day today.

There was a moment where my mood dipped, but then snowman happened and tagging and it's just been a great evening.

Got a bunch of chores done, and I'm making great progress on getting my rp shit together.

Slowly, but surely.

I really don't want the day to end, and I'm sad I had to cut myself off so I can go to bed at a decent time and hopefully sleep so I can get some cleaning work done tomorrow.

good :>

also boo :<

Yeah. :/ Sometimes my meds work just right and it's so hard to stop when I need to.

It's so easy to just keep going until I run myself ragged, but when things feel good and happy and productive it just sucks to let it end.

I get stuck in such low ruts and then something pulls me out and I wish I could just stay there.

The extreme highs/lows make me think there might be some other issues besides the ADD to deal with but ugh. It's so easy to just keep taking the ADD meds until I literally can't go anymore.

I wish every day could be good like this one, but since it's rare it makes it all the harder to be responsible and try to stick to a schedule.

istg I belong on a planet with 48-hour days. If I could be awake for 24 and sleep for 15 hours in between while still functioning in society, I'd be set.

ur doin some shit i did b4 i got diagnosed bp2 tbh

i'd talk to a doc/psych abt it bc if you are any kind of bp then the add meds are not going to give u the help u rly need

ughhhh my first ever diagnosis was bp but the meds they gave me made it way worse so now I'm like super terrified to tread into that territory again

:[ yeah that's a worry too. how long ago was it tho, there may be new meds u can try?

i get being terrified tho

when we thought i just had gad and mdd (vs gad and bp2) i was terrified to go back onto meds bc ssris make me so sick

the add meds solve so much I'm afraid to have to switch and lose all the progress. I haven't had much benefit from anything but the add meds, nothing really improving on the few meds I've tried for bp or depression, but my latest therapist suggested there may be a combination of things gong on so that's a whole new slew of shit to try to figure out

but yeah, keep talking with the psych and therapist is what I'm going to do. it just always scares me if I have to go back to square one.

yyyyy if the add meds do help maybe u need to add sth for a combo

to take care of what the add meds can't

yeah

mental health why

brains are rude af

I JUST WANT TO FUNCTION LIKE AN AVERAGE HUMAN

is this so much to ask

yes, apparently

dammit brain