Weird anxiety dream this morning.

Like, I get the 'you signed up for this class and it's three weeks in and you've never attended' dreams a lot, not to mention a 'you don't remember your schedule or where anythign is. All about high school.

But this one was in a giant lecture hall and apparently was about an orchestra class. And I

And I had been switched from woodwind to violin (neither of which I play) and between one thing and another had never practiced the violin, and had forgotten it to class, and had missed half the class by going to a memorial for a friend of a friend that I didn' really know.

And the instructor (who was either my undergrad astronomy adviser or the author of one of the webcomcis I read) was all 'we need to get ready, so we can play this straight through' and I start freaking out.

And after the class, he was all 'hey, what about you work the slide projector instead of play, and I'm all 'I don't need your pity'. So I go home and find my violin, and it's almost bedtime and I open the case, and the violin is apparently a 'do it yourself' assembly...

...because the school couldn't give me a working one when i swtiched from wahtever my original instrument was. (Flute? Recorder?)

The thing is, I didn't go into instrumental music past elementary school because I never practiced, and my instrument was the cello. (Which is a lovely instrument, but a pain in the ass when you are in the 5th grade and need to haul it around for class and practicing.)

Also the instructor had left photocopied pro-Devos articles on the desks, which weren't even legible photocopies. Like, not just 'you can't read in dreams', since I could see the music fine, but 'this was a poor photocopy of cheap newsprint, and may be several generations removed from the original, so no one can read beyond hte headline.

I don't even with my brain