2016 in review and 2017 stuff

i wasn't sure about doing this but u know what i don't want to end 2016 without a hearty fuck you to the whole year so

tbh i think this has been the hardest year of my life

i decided not to continue my college education after going my entire life assuming that's what i'd do, my mental health hit rock fucking bottom for the first time, i have really drifted from a lot of people i used to be really close to

and of course the trumpening which has further made me doubt the merits of continuing to fight an uphill battle

i spent a lot of this year thinking i was a worthless failure and lowkey wanting to fling myself off a cliff tbh it's been NOT GREAT

but i've done some good stuff too...i came out to my dad after years of fear, for the first time ever i've actually done enough art to feel like i can do that art year in review thing, and i help run snowblind and stuff...

tbh i still feel pretty cruddy in general about all this but going forward i do want it to be better so i am going to make a list of things i want to improve on for 2017.

- art! next year i want to have at least one finished piece each month! and i want to set up some merch to sell online and get out there more! and hopefully come up with some stories that i can actually illustrate!

- work! i must become a real cog in the capitalist machine

- RP! i want to improve my tagging habits. they're nowhere near as bad as they used to be but i still slump into days of inactivity and stagnation and i want to cut down on that in 2017. i think i will have more fun if i am less insecure about my tagging habits!

- me tbh, i need to get a counsellor or something i've started the process a few times and never followed through bc of fear and the very mental health issues i'm trying to improve but that's gotta stop lol

and i want to be more on top of things in general...less procrastinating but i say that every year rip so we'll see how it goes

but i gotta try

i am VERY AFRAID of the future but all i can do is my best so that is what i am going to try and do!