[Whining] I remember the pottermore patronus test asked me to think of the happiest memory I had.

and I feel very odd that after all these years that I feel have been quite happy, there should really only one moment that comes to mind

I sound crazy hahaha

but I love him so much that I hate myself now for not being as dedicated a fan. I might now just love the memory of him and that upsets me because he deserves better than that.

and then I think, god that sounds ever crazier. I have nothing to do with this man yet I sound so delusional when I say things like that as if it matters to him what form my being his fan takes.