I'm feeling very weirdy and I'm not super sure why. Emotions that stem from my own personal experiences are weird

I think part of it is nervous about the job and the hours and how I'm gonna find time to do stuff...I know I'll figure it's all out but

It's still a new and different state and I'm worried and unfair and nervous

Mostly about the dress code tbh tho

I know I'm capable enough to tackle whatever comes my way but tbh all I really want rn is someone to just

Hug me and be proud of me and sometimes I feel like with the way a lot of ppl see me they see me as way stronger than I am

I'm just a damn scared kid like everyone else and I'm flubbing my way through so much

I don't know why I'm experiencing emotion because realistically and logically I'll figure this all out and work through it

But rn I just think I'll crawl into bed and figure out my own bullshit later

I'm also mad at myself bc I've forgone my meds for a grossly long time and I know this is related to that too