Boo👻Berry
Boo👻Berry
I love Rob Lowe so much
Craftyviking
That first gif is pretty awesome
Lady Stardust
that is fantastic
Lady Stardust
also ilu I was so sure you had forgotten and then TAG
Lady Stardust
< me this morning
< me this morning
omnomivore
Mornin'
Boo👻Berry
Morning! Guys, I have a 3.5 hour shift. I normally hate the micro shift but I'm so glad for it today 
Boo👻Berry
I get to come home at 10 and just burrow into blankets and stop being sick
Lady Stardust
ugh being sick is the worst
Boo👻Berry
It is. It's so annoying. When I'm achy from krav or whatever it's fine, but achy from invading bacteria? No get out
Lady Stardust
i feel you
Lady Stardust
like my regular chronic illness crappiness is bad enough but this last fortnight I've had a stinking cold on top of it
Lady Stardust
fucking nightmare
Boo👻Berry
Ugh no :c Your body and the illness shouldn't work in tandem
Lady Stardust
it's made me deaf in one ear and I can't hold conversations or enjoy music properly I AM SO FUCKING ANNOYED
Boo👻Berry
it getting any better after this long?
Lady Stardust
not really, and if it lasts another week I'm taking it to my doctor
Lady Stardust
i used to literally never get colds, my immune system was seriously badass before it began eating its own tail
Lady Stardust
it killed Hep C stone dead without any outside help
Boo👻Berry
Damn mine was pretty good before this liver thing and yours still would kick mine's ass
Boo👻Berry
How long was it from contracting it to having it gone?
Lady Stardust
hmmm I got tested positive in 1999 when John died
Lady Stardust
I think three years later after I got clean was the first time I ested negative, and I have ever since
Lady Stardust
this is probably WHY i got fibro, my immune system got bored and sarted chewing the furniture
Lady Stardust
should've given it more flu
Lady Stardust
my hep C was never symptomatic though, it was just there
Boo👻Berry
Started licking door handles, eating candy off hospital floors...
Lady Stardust
it probably helped that I've never been much of a drinker
Boo👻Berry
That is really amazing, though, holy shit
Lady Stardust
all the other stupid destructive shit, sure, but I never really liked being drunk
Lady Stardust
which was lucky because that shit will wreck you harder and more lastingly than most illegal shit
Lady Stardust
I knew so many people that got clean off heroin or coke and fell straight into alcohol
Boo👻Berry
Ahh definitely. I love booze but I drink maaaybe once a year, plus or minus a glass of wine with dinner? Whhen I would have wanted to drink more,
Boo👻Berry
all my money went to things that were illegal and a whole lot harder to get
Lady Stardust
YES THIS
Boo👻Berry
Same. My cousins both did and it's just so much harder because alcohol is everywhere and inexpensive
Lady Stardust
I mean I'm still not a teetotaller, I just ...effectively I am
Boo👻Berry
Now my liver's screaming about all the past abuse I pretty much am too /highfive /sighs about organs
Lady Stardust
booze didn't happen to hit my addict buttons, and i am so lucky for that
Lady Stardust
like, I don't pretend this was a decision I made for good reasons or anything, I just never wanted to be drunk much
Boo👻Berry
Man, same. My friend is clean off drugs, booze, tobacco, all of it and he made a conscious decision for them all. Me? Drugs I quit with a fury. Booze I indulge in (or used to) sometimes. Tobacco I didn't
Boo👻Berry
ever enjoy that much but sometimes an odd craving hits. It was super easy for me to give up though, whereas most of my friends who quit heroin or meth can't give up cigarettes
Lady Stardust
I still smoke like a fucking chimney
Lady Stardust
I wish I loved it less. I know I'd feel a zillion times better without it
Lady Stardust
but I can't make myself want to quit
Boo👻Berry
I think it helped that I mostly only smoked cloves and those are harder to find here
Lady Stardust
i used to love those when i was a teenager XD
Boo👻Berry
THEY ARE SO GOOD I quit when I was 23 but if someone has one at a party I still get all weak-kneed for a drag
Lady Stardust
i know smoking is objectively gross but I love it
Lady Stardust
i love the taste and the smell and the way it feels
Lady Stardust
one day I'll wake up and decide feeling better is worth giving up my last real vice
Lady Stardust
but today is not that day
Boo👻Berry
I love how you can just take a chunk of time out and be immersed in it, and how coffee and a cigarette on a cold morning feels
Lady Stardust
OH GOD YES
Boo👻Berry
like if anything makes me sigh wistfully? That's it
Lady Stardust
breakfast of champions
Lady Stardust
haha I remembered a little junkie thing yesterday for no reason and I will tell you this story
Boo👻Berry
I'm supposed to be at work in twenty minutes and I'm trying really hard to care UGH okay I'll get dressed
Boo👻Berry
Tell me!!
Lady Stardust
there was a bunch of about eight of us squatting in this derelict house
Lady Stardust
me and Mike and a bunch of other basically shitheads, like a lot of us were
Lady Stardust
and we had developed this weird little ritual
Lady Stardust
like we were all sleeping in our clothes in grotty sleeping bags in this stining boarded up house
Lady Stardust
but every night we did this good nigth ritual like the Waltons
Lady Stardust
out loud
Lady Stardust
"Good night Mike! Good night Sparky! Good night Shithead!"
Lady Stardust
just ...one of those random little things that made us feel like family at the time
Lady Stardust
that house was the one where people turned up and began to demolish it one morning without checking there was no one in it
Lady Stardust
we were literally woken up by chunks of ceiling hitting the floor between us and sudden light coming through the hole they'd just knocked in teh roof
Lady Stardust
it's a fucking miracle none of us were killed
Lady Stardust
most of the memories of that time are horrible? but there's still this weird thread of good things that runs all through it
Boo👻Berry
I have odd little moments of good too and it's so hard to explain to people
Lady Stardust
yep
Lady Stardust
like, I wouldn't go back to that life for anything but there were things that I really liked
Boo👻Berry
it's like being out of hell and missing the heat
Lady Stardust
or at least missing the times you'd sit around with the other demons roasting marshmallows
Boo👻Berry
haha yes exactly. one of my cousins was my best friend for the worst of it. she's still on drugs so I haven't seen her in years but
Boo👻Berry
she is still the only person I feel really would have done anything for me if I needed it
Lady Stardust
that was the hardest thing
Lady Stardust
Mike was like a brother to me and I abandoned him
Lady Stardust
I had to. It was either just me leaving the ship or both of us sinking, and he knew that too - he made me leave
Lady Stardust
but he died a year later and it hurts so much that I couldn't save him