[RL] WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN WOULD HAVE BEEN BEAUTIFUL.

TMW you have a friend. And you and that friend used to mutually crush on each other so hard. We still do. But that was years ago and if we would have lived closer, met in person earlier Maybe we would

have been a thing. But that friend is Poly. And you are not. And it makes you sad to think about sometimes because damn man.

there is so much love in your heart and some days I wonder.

FRIEND ACTUALLY ASKED AT ONE POINT BUT THE LONG DISTANCE WOULD HAVE BEEN TOO MUCH AT THE TIME AND GOD.

Do y'all ever wonder what it might be like RIGHT NOW if you had said yes to something you'd said no to?

Friend, I miss you all the time and I cry when you leave and I want to be near you when you're here. LIFE HURTS MAN. LIFE REALLY HURTS SOMETIMES.

I feel this very hard, my friend.

I like their SO a lot, we're friends too but man.

I feel like a dick whenever I think if it would be different if I had said yes first.

I had this couple I was best friends with, and...it came up but I wasn't at all in a place to get involved in anything serious and also would have had to move to Mexico.

But I always wonder.

Yeah ;A;

God.

If I was poly. If I knew I could do that I so would. But I'm not. And I can't change me. And I can't change them. So it's just dead in the water.

Yeah, the worst situations are those where it's just a simple matter of circumstances beyond any control. :/

UGH HE IS SO SWEET THOUGH.

Like. We are talking about this right here, together and it hurts my heart, man.

/hugs you gently

He says he wants to come home. I just.

;A; I MISS YOU TOO