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I am more mentally drained and stressed than I thought. I'm going to preemptively call a slowatus for RP and if it looks like I'm going to have trouble with AC by mid-month, I'll make it official.
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My brain has been running on low and distracted and this month is already stressful for a number of reasons.
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I still want to RP and do tags, but not sure how consistent I'll be with them...
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Tomorrow I'm talking with a professor in our department, unrelated to my thesis, to see if I can get some advice/guidance because I have no idea what I'm doing anymore besides lacking in motivation
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So I'm trying to figure out next semester, finally graduate maybe, and life in general
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That said, I don't mind being directed towards things if they need my attention because I'm probably going to miss a lot/not be paying as close attention 
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I've been lowkey anxious/stressed the last couple of weeks and I don't think it's going to let up
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I'll prod this tomorrow when it's not SO LATE because my sleep schedule is also all over the place which has not been helpful.
niangniang
oh friend ;w; hugs u
niangniang
if you need anyone to vent at lmk that kinda stress is so draining
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thanks. it's been eating at me
niangniang
Mr. Vocabulary
it sounds like you really need it <3
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Thanks guys
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it's a lot of I don't know what to do or what I want and none of this should be that hard
niangniang
man, that stuff is ALWAYS hard
niangniang
especially when you're at a crossroads or struggling
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anytime I get to a crossroads I freeze up
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YEAH I bet
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I just don't know what to do!!! or how to handle the upcoming semester
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and any time I think about it I get really overwhelmed
stormcaller
:hugs:
Lauren
aww man that sounds rough, I hope talking to your professor helps out
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It helped some, but I still don't know what I'm doing
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I guess figuring out how to finish this stupid degree so I can move on finally. DON'T KNOW WHERE but that can be step one
Lauren
yes one step at a time