In our WhatsApp family group, I read that Grandmother in Jakarta is going to Jogja and wants to celebrate Eid in Jogja.

One of my aunties in Jakarta has just contacted my Mom in Jogja about it. And some other families from Borneo, 2 other aunties, will celebrate in Jogja too.

Some also want to visit a cousin who's still studying in Jogja.

Another cousin still hasn't decided because his wife is still aboard, but another sister-in-law has confirmed that they'll celebrate Eid in Jogja too.

And my other cousin in South Sumatra will come too InshaAllah. One uncle will come to Jogja before Eid, but will celebrate it in East Java. The others will still stay in Jogja during Eid.

Nevertheless, a lot of family members will come and celebrate Eid in Jogja InshaAllah. That's including me and my brothers of course.

All tickets have already been booked. Which means, it's going to be a very crowded Eid, if we all can finish the Ramadan.

I hope this is going to be a happy and fun moment, instead of hurtful and devastating moment like that I experienced last year. Lonely and empty, full of tears and sadness.

Well, but I don't know what I shall tell to my big family about my current condition. I'm truly ashamed with myself. I hope none will ask about me.