мαи∂α
[medication/emotions/pms???] I don't know if I'm crazy or not but I feel like since I started my meds I've been like
мαи∂α
even more emotional and sensitive during pms/my period
мαи∂α
which I have never had an issue with before
мαи∂α
but man. It seems like since I started my medication I've just been SUPER SENSITIVE to everything and it exacerbates those stupid pricklings in the back of my head about feeling ignored/unwanted in groups
мαи∂α
the ones I normally ignore because it's my brain being stupid
мαи∂α
Might need to talk to my doctor about it, but other days of the month the medication is the perfect combo
мαи∂α
I'll need to keep an eye on it and see if it's only during the PMS/start of my period or does it throughout the whole week
мαи∂α
because I'm in a weird place of being really emotional and also rationally like "okay, this is not normal wth is going on"
мαи∂α
And I'm trying to figure it out but getting on medication recently was the first time I'd be back on anything in a couple of years. I do not have a lot of experience with daily meds 8(
Plum Bun
oof :< that's really rough
мαи∂α
YEAH and I feel so stupid because it's my emotions going stupid over little things even
мαи∂α
like I got really upset earlier when I finally got a tech thing back from a repair place, but they gave me a newer model since they couldn't fix my old one and I was SO UPSET because it wasn't the exact same
мαи∂α
even though I had okayed the change in model
мαи∂α
I have had a lot of time to think on this because today has been a chill in bed while my cramps calm down day. though at least that part is normal for me the first day
wooper
That definitely sounds like something you should talk to your doc about
мαи∂α
Yeah, issue is it's so damn expensive to have to keep going to appointments and figuring out different med combos
мαи∂α
and I know there's been improvements since I've gotten on it with what my counselor had been showing me, they did evals every few weeks to help see what was going on
Ωmega
yeah, that thing where you're totally rational about your irrationality? that's a sign it's chemical in nature.
Ωmega
it is okay to want to keep tweaking things, but it is also okay to accept a certain number of predictable off days. you're the one that has to live like this.
Ωmega
i was absolutely useless two days a month for a while because i needed a break from all that doctor shit.
мαи∂α
Yeah I'm mostly worried about the money part. Because it costs money to get medication and money to go see the doctor. It adds up if I have to go see her once ever two weeks-to one month to change things or
мαи∂α
check on things
Ωmega
sometimes your body needs time to adjust, too. might be two months down the road you're not so frisible.
мαи∂α
It's been... I think three months now?
мαи∂α
Because I got onto it shortly after I started up at the counseling center because I had to track down what doctor they used now for their medication
мαи∂α
and some days I feel like I have a really good handle on things and others I'm just so done
мαи∂α
I really need to graduate and get a change of scenery I think
wooper
Is this spring your last semester?
мαи∂α
If I can actually finish my thesis, yeah
мαи∂α
but I know leaving will be a giant mess
wooper
It'll be such a weight off your shouldersto have it done, man
мαи∂α
Yeah, if I can at least get graduating / school down that'd be one less thing to worry about (besides finding a real job)
мαи∂α
I miss living either by myself or with friends
мαи∂α
Really tired of the whole living with family situation, but I need a real job before I can get away from that and for my older brother to figure out something better than living with us