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Ask me S-word things! Shipping, smut, sexy, anything else s word like...
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Sacrifice?
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Scary?
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Satisfying?
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under sexuality: which of your characters has the most difficulty relating to/dealing with theirs? which has the least trouble?
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Most difficulty is probably Hathaway. He's very deeply closeted and only comes out for self destructive bouts before going back in.
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He dates women on odd occasion. Three times we know of in the show. One is a work mate he has sex with, otherwise doesn't see. One is a serial killer who tries to burn him alive.
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The third is a childhood friend who knows he's in a terrible place and manipulates him and nearly gets him killed.
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Easiest...
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Probably Mohinder Suresh. He's unashamedly and unapologetically bisexual.
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It's the benefit of English schooling, away from his home country of India, where it's illegal for men to have sex with each other.
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A lot of my muses have had some difficulty coming to terms with things, but not necessarily in big traumatic ways, if that makes sense?
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Jeez I feel bad for Hathaway. And yes, that makes sense; that's one of the reasons I asked, actually. A lot of your characters are products of cultures where heterosexuality is assumed.
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Luke, more than the average Joe Blow
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James Hathaway is a bundle of issues that are generally best left alone because he has a vicious bite when he feels threatened.
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Luke, for me, is closer to asexual than anything. He likes intimacy rather than sex.
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..That was supposed to be like, not Luke. But I am all for hearing Luke headcanons
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Mohinder is viciously and spitefully delighted in being bisexual. Because he can be a right bitch about life in general.
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(amusingly, he and D are more similar than not that way. This made me start musing over character sexualities during work and realizing D reeeeeally doesn't feel sexual attraction on it's own.--)
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Isaac is very much a try-sexual, but he comes from a culture heavily focused on machismo, which causes issues. Issues often 'overcome' by copious drug abuse.
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D is demisexual, I imagine. He's attracted to personalities and he has to be pretty involved before anything like attraction happens.
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..Yes thank you that was the word I was flailing for
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Scott has done to his sexuality what he did to the rest of himself. Decided what was appropriate, what was not and compartmentalised it appropriately.
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Scott, I'm not sure if I
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am impressed or appalled about that.
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Both.
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Go with both
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When he came off the street, he decided who he should be. He decided to be the boy next door, the boy scout, the painfully normal guy.
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He genuinely is attracted to women, so that made it easier to put anything that didn't fit his new image away.
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I probably will. How do you think the confines of 'appropriate' and 'not appropriate' changed going from his relationships with Jean, Emma and Logan? (When you're done with this b/c interesting)
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Jean was appropriate.
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That makes sense. He wouldn't have had to technically lie about his sexuality--just leave out certain details, which is easier.
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Jean was smart and beautiful and he genuinely loved her and he really was attracted to her, both physically and mentally.
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And when she died, it didn't break anything in him. It was a sharp reminder that life isn't a storybook, even if you've tried to turn it into that, make sense of it.
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Logan happened after Jean died, because Scott didn't know how to grieve, he'd never been allowed to grieve for anything he lost and logan pushed at him until he cracked enough to start actually dealing with it.
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He never lied. And jean never raised it, even though she knew, because Scott wasn't ready to start reevaluating and maybe, it seemed easier for them both to not open that cat of worms.
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can^
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That last bit is somehow very sad in my mind, because I can see Jean thinking she would be there to help him in the tomorrow when he was ready to examine that part of himself, and then her tomorrows ran out
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Yeah, basically. She realised at least some of the problems with him and logan weren't jealousy, but when it happened, it wasn't like it should have been.
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It was angry and grief and drunk and didn't really help either of them for a while.
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It mellowed out eventually and when Jean came back, it was Logan who got both her and Scott through losing Nathan, because yeah, he understood.
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Now, with Emma? Emma and Scott routinely bring Logan into their bed. Two of them can get somewhere near pushing his endurance and Emma likes having them both there.
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(I have an OT3 and I refuse to be judged)
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(Also thank you, now I've veered off mentally to examining Kurt's sexuality and how becoming a priest was an unconscious and toxic form of self-flagellation.)
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You're welcome
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I think about so many of these things and just... don't get a chance to babble them at people?
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I always welcome people babbling about their characters to me. Always.
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I've recently started putting together new muses.
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However... you're going away soon, right? For how long?
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as far as Emma, I can very see her refusing to let Scott block off that part of his sexuality. because she knows too well tomorrow isn't guaranteed
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and also I don't think she'd see the point? there are so many worse sexual practices to be ashamed of
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just for about a weekish. I'll have my phone so I'll have aim running but won't be available to rp
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Scott's learned to accept a lot more of himself since Emma. Because she really didn't care and sometimes laughed at him for thinking things were an issue when they clearly weren't.
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Like "Why can't we have Logan with us? Who the fuck matters outside the three of us?"
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AIM! Yay! I'm ramble there
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Because it's sort of bed time for me.
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Go sleep, then
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I will. I'll harass you on AIM tomorrow. <3