when you want to talk to people but you're too scared

ME

but i'll be serious here for a moment

agoraphobia is a pain. i miss the days where i could go out and talk to people with less stress

but with recent shifts, friends moving out of state, and other things, it's just not the same as it was five or so years ago

i likely had some sort of anxiety for a while, i think. but it just shift into agoraphobia afterwards

LIKE. i'm not afraid of talking to people, it's bizarre

i'm more afraid of being perceived differently and i'm afraid of having panic attacks ??? yet that somehow can make me have panic attacks???

but i haven't had a panic attack in months?

this is why i kind of disagree with people saying that online communication or technology has ruined things. it's an absolute godsend for people like me

even if sometimes that anxiety rolls over online. i have people added and i am afraid to talk to them

but i'm more afraid of going out, sometimes. i miss the days where going out wasn't a pain for me

but yeah, if i ever get quiet, please don't take it personally! i just get nervous. it's ridiculous

i'm working on getting better about the agoraphobia. things get better, but it's still very, very difficult some days

i remember in high school i got nervous talking to classmates, but i remember saying "screw it" and just jumping in. strange how things change in 10 some years