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Sometimes I think all of us on plurk are just screaming for attention. Not in a bad "pay attention to me" way, more like...I'm hurting and I want someone to care
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I just want someone to notice and maybe I'll start feeling better
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But it doesn't work
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I'm screaming and screaming until my throat is raw and I'm not....getting any better
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But because we're all struggling it gets hard to be sympathetic
otter18
Yeah, I think that's people
otter18
/hugs youuuuu
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Because how can we help out when we already feel like shit
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I wanna feel better and I want all my friends to feel better but it seems like we're all stuck
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Hugs otter and peach
moon302
That is one of many things we do here, yes
moon302
also there is the "how can I offer comfort and then turn around and ask for comfort, isn't that selfish" feeling, like
moon302
you're hurting, your hurt is legit, how can I burden you by asking for comfort about mine, even if mine is legit too? how can I ask you to take the time and energy to comfort me?
moon302
isn't that taking your time and energy away from you, the brainwolves say?
moon302
And conversely, sometimes, if everything hurts for me, how can I tell you that you'll be okay? How can I give you hope when I can't feel it for myself at the time (even if I know my feelings are liars)?
moon302
You're smart, you know I'm not always okay, how am I a credible source for "you'll be okay"?
moon302
That's one of the classic fallacies though, I can't remember which one.
moon302
...I think a lot of us were brought up to take responsibility of the emotions of people supposedly older and more "responsible" than us,
moon302
and then made to feel useless when they didn't acknowledge that we are not actually capable of magically changing another person's feelings.
moon302
So there's a sense that "trying to help" is a good thing BUT ALSO that it inevitably fails and that makes us failures.
moon302
That's not how people are supposed to work, though?
moon462
I am so sorry you feel this way, anon. What can we do to help?
moon462
Why am I also a moon?
guava130
leaps on gently and hugs in lieu of being able to do something more
melon44
I understand that feeling too well, moon
melon44
It's been Hell to try and unlearn 'trying to fix' people and to learn that I just can't help everyone
moon302
Yeah ;; /hugs everyone here
moon302
(hi fellow moon XD let us orbit OP together!)
moon462
Doing our best to bring a little light into the OPs life!
moon302
If it helps, anon, I struggle a lot and sometimes say so, but even if you don't say anything, I like seeing you and my other plurkfriends out there on the internet.
moon302
I don't always (or, sometimes, often) have the energy to say anything, but you are on my plurklist (because I can see this) and I care about everyone I have here.
moon302
I see you and I care about you. I still need to learn how to say that in a healthy way, but your voice is heard.
moon302
I wish wanting you to feel better would actually make you feel better or that I could help in some practical tangible way.
deer146
^ What Moon said.
deer146
hawk516
There is so much in this plurk that struck a chord.
hawk516
/hugs anons
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Ugh you guys I love you all /hugs you tight
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I wish I could give you all actual hugs and let you know you're loved too because you always manage to say exactly what I need to hear
solar738
/adds more hugs to the pile because reasons
moon302
/same and yes I really wish I could hug everyone I know here in person and make it clear how much you all mean to me. <3<3<3
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That emote is a dead giveaway
moon302
BUT TWO OF US USED IT |D
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THAT MEANS I KNOW WHAT CIRCLE KF FRIENDS YOU BELONG TO
moon302
moon302
(cozy)
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And that confirms it lol hi eckart
moon302
I know I'm not the only one on my list who uses either of those emotes, but yep, we're probably both from the Tron side!
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