dragon8writer
do you ever feel good... For no apparent reason ... And the moment you exine that feeling... You start to feel like crap?
dragon8writer
You would think I would know better. But I keep hoping this time it'll be actual happiness and not the fake mood swing stuff.
MooseChangerPat
I hate that
I hate that
dragon8writer
Yeah. I keep examining it. And then. Lol nooo happy for you. Like. The moment I actually think about it. It crumbles away like the thin facade overlapping my depression that it truly is.
MooseChangerPat
I try not to think about why I'm happy anymore, and just roll with it by spreading love and good cheer for as long as I can.
I try not to think about why I'm happy anymore, and just roll with it by spreading love and good cheer for as long as I can.
MooseChangerPat
I've got a lot of things I can be happy for anyways
MooseChangerPat
I've got good friends, beautiful otps, great food, I'm loved by so many people, I have a laptop capable of connecting to the internet and playing advanced computer games, I've got a bunch of level 100 pokemon
MooseChangerPat
life is pretty good.
dragon8writer
IT is
dragon8writer
BUt depression sucks.
MooseChangerPat
That
That
MooseChangerPat
why I'm glad I have anti-depressants that work better than my last batch
dragon8writer
I started on wellbrufin or whatever
dragon8writer
Rather than seretonun levels, it boosts endorphins and,... something else. Good for ADD and depression
dragon8writer
And known to help boost depression.
dragon8writer
motivation8
dragon8writer
Motivation** As well as help depression in general
dragon8writer
Also works way quicker - potentially within the first 40 minutes. (Though it can take a week to fully build in your bloodstream, and full effects can still take 3-4 weeks, but... you start seeing results
dragon8writer
waaay quicker)
dragon8writer
It apparently works at increasing concentration and alertness, and yet - almost as a side effect - it helps treat depressoin
MooseChangerPat
I seeeee
MooseChangerPat
I'm taking cymbalta for my fibromyalgia and treating a bit of my cfids and depression on the side.
MooseChangerPat
It also helps with my motivation and add to a degree 
dragon8writer
I don't know if it's perfect - i might need a mix, too, but... it seems to be having an effect
dragon8writer
And I'm also on an anti-anxiety medication.
MooseChangerPat
Mmm
MooseChangerPat
that's quite a combination
dragon8writer
And of course hormones
dragon8writer
Also tag.
dragon8writer
But hm. LEt me edit that.
dragon8writer
MooseChangerPat
: Done properly now
dragon8writer
Depression is no excuse for writing a bad Erza post
MooseChangerPat
oh my... that was not what Mira was expecting to happen.
oh my... that was not what Mira was expecting to happen.
dragon8writer
DId you like it?
dragon8writer
Mira did open the doors to a proper competition, and she did clearly forget her manners.
MooseChangerPat
It's a shame that my Mirajane can be such a masochist.
It's a shame that my Mirajane can be such a masochist.
MooseChangerPat
She plays the roll of sadist and masochist really, but she plays the roll of the masochist more readily because she's afraid of hurting people with her demonic powers.
dragon8writer
that a yes on liking it???
MooseChangerPat
I'm personally torn cause I've never actually done much S&M scenarios before, but Mirajane loves it.
I'm personally torn cause I've never actually done much S&M scenarios before, but Mirajane loves it.
dragon8writer
Was+
dragon8writer
it IC???? DO you think???
MooseChangerPat
Oh it's 100% IC
Oh it's 100% IC
dragon8writer
YEssss
MooseChangerPat
My Erza isn't even nearly as IC as that in the bedroom thanks to my own personal preferences ^^;
MooseChangerPat
How would you feel about 2 months of paid account time for Erza?
MooseChangerPat
I have some points left from buying paid accounts for two of my characters thanks to the December sale. I was thinking of waiting till Christmas, or giving it to one of my other accounts, but I feel like you..
MooseChangerPat
could use the icon range
dragon8writer
Fffffffffffffff. WEll. I wouldn't say no. But I could buy her some, i guess. ;; I just. Don't usually use more than fifteen. (I guess. If you relink me to your gallery. I could see what to dadd, tho~)
MooseChangerPat
Weeeeelll, if you don't really need them...
dragon8writer
Gimme the link, and I guess I could buy her a month to see. DX
MooseChangerPat
Erza Photos by MooseChangerPat on Photobucket here's 80 Erza icons
MooseChangerPat
There are two repeats in there though :|a
dragon8writer
MooseChangerPat
: How shall i credit you????
dragon8writer
moosechangerpat?
MooseChangerPat
Sounds good
dragon8writer
I suddenly want to do a post with Erza as a dtermined nurse, deciding to give you your medicine - which of course has to be given quite sexually
MooseChangerPat
Oh dear, what have I done?
Oh dear, what have I done?
MooseChangerPat
MooseChangerPat
dragon8writer
FFFF She is so terrible at nursing, isn't she?
dragon8writer
BUT ENTHUSIASTIC
dragon8writer
Anyway, what do you think?
dragon8writer
I kept some of your save names, of course
MooseChangerPat
Ooh! Very nice!
MooseChangerPat
You may want to reconsider using the holy smokes icon since it's pretty much the same as your embarrassed one
dragon8writer
Yes, but different zoom
MooseChangerPat
Okay, if there's enough of a difference for you that's cool too
Okay, if there's enough of a difference for you that's cool too