Lord_Voldynose
if i disappeared i'd stop disappointing everyone once and for all
loser
if you disappeared i would crumble completely
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if you disappeared i'd lose a huge piece of myself and i'd live half-alive with a missing puzzle piece i'll never find again
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if you disappeared everyone will have one amazing person less from their lives
Lord_Voldynose
all i do is let everyone down. im a huge disappointment and i know it.
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if you disappeared i wouldn't even want to go to concerts anymore
Lord_Voldynose
you'd always have concert buddies man. i could add you to this group im in. they're all band enthusiasts and they always go to concerts.
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if you disappeared there would be this huge gap that no one will ever fill in
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YOU ARE NOT A DISAPPOINTMENT JAMIE IF YOU WERE THEN NAME ONE TIME YOU DISAPPOINTED ME
Lord_Voldynose
right now. i see you're hurting really bad and i cant do anything to help. i cant say anything to make you feel better.
loser
YOU ALWAYS, ALWAYS GO OUT OF YOUR WAY FOR EVERYBODY, FOR ANYBODY,EVEN IF IT MEANS RISKING SOMETHING
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YOU ARE NOWHERE NEAR DISAPPOINTMENT JAMIE, NOT EVEN CLOSE
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I'M SO FRUSTRATED I'M CRYING RN I'M NOT HURTING I'M JUST BEING STUPID, AND YOU DON'T THINK YOU'VE EVER HELPED ME THOSE TIMES WHEN I WAS REALLY HURTING? YOU WERE THERE FOR ME JAMIE WHEN NO ONE ELSE WAS
loser
I THOUGHT WE WOULD STAY STRONG TOGETHER AND RECOVER TOGETHER
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BUT HOW COME IT SEEMS LIKE I'M GOING TO HAVE TO DO THIS ALONE
Lord_Voldynose
I promised you. I don't break my promises.
Lord_Voldynose
Thank you for reminding me.
Lord_Voldynose
I'm sorry man
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IT'S NOT ONLY ME WHO NEEDS YOU JAMIE
Lord_Voldynose
It's school. It's cracking me.
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THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE AROUND YOU WHO CARES
Lord_Voldynose
Im sorry you're crying right now
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BUT YOU'RE NOT ALONE JAMIE YOU AREN'T, WHAT HAPPENED TO WHAT I TOLD YOU IN MY LETTER
Lord_Voldynose
I know, I know. I guess I'm being stupid too.
loser
I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOU APOLOGIZING MAN I JUST WANT YOU TO UNDERSTAND THAT YOU ARE LOVED AND CARED FOR AND YOU ARE NOT ONE BIT OF A DISAPPOINTMENT
Lord_Voldynose
oh my god why do you live so far away
loser
YOU'RE NOT STUPID AND I'VE SEEN IT, YOU'RE STRONG AND I'VE SEEN IT, YOU MADE IT TO 5 MONTHS CANT YOU SEE HOW HUGE THAT IS
Lord_Voldynose
but i dont know if i could last that long again. im so scared man. so fucking scared. i wake up in the middle of the night because im so scared of i don't even know what
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YOU MAY HAVE BROKEN YOUR STREAK BUT YOU'RE BREATHING AND HAVE A WHOLE LIFE AHEAD OF YOU YOU CAN START OVER IT'S NEVER TOO LATE
Lord_Voldynose
im just holding on to the last bit of sanity i have left and that's the thought of you and pat. the both of you are the only people that keeps me here.
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BUT YOUR HEART IS SO STRONG, FEEL IT MAN IT'S STILL BEATING FOR YOU. IT'S CALLED PURPOSE OKAY, THAT WAS YOUR COVER PHOTO. I WISH YOU TRIED TO LISTEN TO IT, TO ITS HEARTBEATS, AND JUST SEE HOW STRONG YOU ARE
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YOU WILL BE ABLE TO GO BACK THERE AND EVEN LAST LONGER, BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, BECAUSE I DO
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HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF AS YOU HAVE FAITH IN ME, BECAUSE WE'RE IN THIS TOGETHER AND THERE'S NO ONE LEAVING EACH OTHER BEHIND
Lord_Voldynose
just... thank you.
Lord_Voldynose
you dont understand how much these words mean to me right now
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I JUST KNOW YOU'LL MAKE IT AGAIN, YOU'RE SO STRONG AND I BELIEVE IN YOU AND YOUR STRENGTH
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AND I WAnt you to make it back there again man because i miss seeing you happy
Lord_Voldynose
I'll make it back there. I promise. We'll make it back there.
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oh Jamie, be careful okay. one day.
Lord_Voldynose
We'll get there. I have faith we will.
Lord_Voldynose
I love you man. <3
Lord_Voldynose
Thank you.
Lord_Voldynose
The word thank you isn't enough but thank you.
loser
i love you too man, anything to make you feel the least of the worst
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you don't deserve this bullshit man
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and you're not a disappointment okay, etch in your mind that you make people happy and feel better