chibimoon
You just had a great day and night,self. Why the sudden inexplicable emotional crash.
chibimoon
Over lady gagas google chrome video, no less. Which I've seen many times before.
chibimoon
Just crying silently in the backseat over nothing while Rita and heather happily gab away ?_? wtf self.
chibimoon
On the plus side, it's been a really really really really really long time since something like this has happened...!
libby❀dango
you might just be overwhelmed from all the travel and going places with people
chibimoon
Hum. Maybe I was touched by gagas love for her fans except I just feel kinda awful, not touched ?_?
libby❀dango
oh 
/hugs
/hugs
chibimoon
That kinda thing doesnt happen to me though... I love revel and people and all my friends here make me feel wanted ._.
chibimoon
*travel, with autocorrect
libby❀dango
maybe you're subconsciously remembering not feeling wanted from when you lived her before? idk...
libby❀dango
sometimes people can be super nice to me and i feel overwhelmed and miserable because i remember how i wanted it so badly in high school
chibimoon
I dunno. I should figure it out but at the same time time I don't want to and then feel bad and then feel too shy to talk about it
ｒａｚｏｒｂａｂｙ
That's kind of weird because I find Gaga's love for her fans a bit narcissistic and insincere.
ｒａｚｏｒｂａｂｙ
She basically says "I am at the center of their worlds and I am pillar for their happiness!!!"
ｒａｚｏｒｂａｂｙ
If it's the video I'm thinking of, where she's crying, it really bothered me.
ｒａｚｏｒｂａｂｙ
I guess I can see why she would make you feel awful!! The more she talks, the more she puts a bad taste in my mouth.
ｒａｚｏｒｂａｂｙ
--I don't actually think that's what's wrong, I'm just ranting. Anyway, going back to Jersey always makes me cry a ton.
ｒａｚｏｒｂａｂｙ
Partially because nostalgia, and also because separation, and also...
ｒａｚｏｒｂａｂｙ
Well, the movie Garden State kind of spells it all out.
ｒａｚｏｒｂａｂｙ
Basically hey Sam it's okay to cry and you don't even have to figure it out.
chibimoon
It's already over haha. I seriously can't. It was a couple of tears and then gone. I wish I could let loose but I don't know how
chibimoon
A big catharsis would be nice. I've been through a lot since my last big cry.
ｒａｚｏｒｂａｂｙ
I don't have advice because I literally cry over anything. I don't know what it's like not to...
chibimoon
I think my suppressed wish to be cared for as mix as I care for leaks out sometimes ?_?;; rationally I think I am but sometimes I forget in
chibimoon
A way
chibimoon
Yeah I really wish I could cry more often. It's frustrating to not be able to even when I want to