My body is all kinds of fucked up the last couple days and I am Not enjoying this.

Yesterday was neck pain and headaches from hell, today is weirdness around my chest (familiar weirdness, I'm pretty sure it's nothing terrible, it's just strain from the weight and weirdness from the lymph nodes under my arm swelling, but chest weirdness always freaks me out)

I slept a lot too, not so much today but the two days before. but that probably has more to do with the fact that as usual I haven't been sleeping a ton and my body needed to catch up.

anyway I am having anxiety spikes because I hate when my chest is bothering me so I'm kinda burying my head in the sand and petting my cats and poking at tags and trying not to think about it.

That sucks so much. I do hope you start to feel better. <3

𝒶𝒷𝓇𝒶𝒹𝑒 : <333

I am slightly less anxious today, but my body hates me because of all the rain. Ugh.

wheeee, nevermind,

I have basically lost the last couple hours to massive waves of anxiety.

I am trying to calm my brain down but who knows what I will get done today if anything.

Anxiety really sucks, and I don't think I'd ever make it without my meds. I hope that you're able to work through yours with breathing and getting the brain to stop the train of thoughts. It's so difficult. I wish you so much positive thinking. You're in my thoughts for sure.

𝒶𝒷𝓇𝒶𝒹𝑒 : I really appreciate it, thank you. <3

I do have meds, but nothing for spur-of-the-moment panic attacks, just day-to-day. (Which have worked magic, my day-to-day anxiety is so much better, but doesn't help me with situational issues too much.)

I got some sleep and I feel a lot better though. It is possible that even though I feel like I've been sleeping a lot lately, it's been so broken that I'm not getting enough deep sleep and that was screwing me up. So that's fun.