i don't know what's wrong with me I never got to talk about this in therapy but my friendship skills are terrible

I LOVE and CARE so much about my close friends...but if I make a friend who I don't like for whatever reason it's like all empathy for them drops and I start ignoring them and getting distant....😞 I wish I couldn't be like this but I can't help it I do it subconsciously

I can assure my current friends that it will never happen to them because they're my favorite people ever

but like ... I have a lot of ex friends because of this. I accidentally made one cry and like I DIDNT MEAN TO but our connection just was dropped...but tbh this person also deserved it they were really horrible to me after this because I tried to be friends again with them.