(I’m not going to go into it; in part because this applies to a lot of shit lately and always!
and in part because there is basically no way to describe the specific thing that prompted this thought today without deeply distressing or triggering someone or myself.)
Also, and this fucking happened last time I read really distressing news, being abruptly distressed has somehow begun to trigger intrusive imagined-visuals of a COMPLETELY UNRELATED past thing. Which I’d stopped having a trauma response about! But now it just...pops up alongside whatever the current news item is, like the platonic ideal of horrificness.
I think as I say that it actually might kind of BE something like that. I ...don’t want to keep talking about it bc again I can’t talk things out very well without being potentially triggersome; maybe I’ll try and talk stuff out on a locked post later to get my head through it.
I don’t know. The world is a fucked up place. All quips aside, I always HAVE dealt with trauma and fear and empathy and bafflement at humans by writing characters dealing with terrible things. So I’m not entirely being snarky about horror games. But jfc.
There's some evidence that playing Tetris after retriggering a traumatic memory can reduce PTSD symptoms - maybe worth trying next time you're having intrusive thoughts? I hope things ease out, no matter what.
and in part because there is basically no way to describe the specific thing that prompted this thought today without deeply distressing or triggering someone or myself.)
I think as I say that it actually might kind of BE something like that. I ...don’t want to keep talking about it bc again I can’t talk things out very well without being potentially triggersome; maybe I’ll try and talk stuff out on a locked post later to get my head through it.
Oof. Just oof.